I put up a night in the hostel yesterday. And being there brought me mixed feelings, which neither have words to make clear of nor are possible to verbalise. You know sometimes when ppl say that things change but ppl don't, i feel exactly the opposite. You go back to the same place, hoping to recollect the same feelings you've once had there, but to realise however hard you try it would be to little avail. I've always hoped that i could be like the characters in movies, because when they recall past happenings, they will be able to hear the exact words that've been said(by the exact voice) at the exact spot. I think i'm very much able to visualise what used to happen when i look at the place, but never to hear those words, though i remember them. It would be cool if you can have the total uncut replay of something, especially those that have made you laugh so hard that you cried.

If only i can bend time and space...

Nov 19 2006

[Selina dyeing my streaks of hair red in nabila's room. The once messy room is now cruelly cleared]

by nabila J