愤与喜

爱与恨

生与死

有时真的只是一线之差

多一股勇气, 多一份耐心, 多一点坚持, 多抱点希望

或许可带给你更多快乐

退一步的确是海阔天空

pikcha randomica

::swEEty SWeety corn corn::only thing that drives me to live in cameron::

::shaleen bought for me just b4 econs paper::chocs craving at enc::two milo panas "kao" not in the pic haha::

:: sound i miss hearing::

::name i miss calling::

::hand i miss holding::

成长

就一定要牺牲往日的童真吗?

跟着岁月的步伐

似乎都忘了原点在哪

过往对自己的承诺

有过的美梦

都失去了原有的地位

我

开始学会了放弃

你呢?

ever wonder why does love even exist?

cuz though the world is filled with sad stories and cruelties

we have love to bring us smiles

to bring us hope and give us faith

all of which we thought have long vanished

wiped out in this desert in dire thirst for humanity

and just when we thought that every effort made should entail expectations of benefits

love is the only thing that could bring us to the frontline of a battlefield

to do something we never knew we were capable of

or to do something so small that we didn't even bother to in the past

small gestures that can make someone smile

and in the end never to expect anything ANYTHING in return

afterall you've been paid, in the most priceless way

in different guise it may make its manifestation

but in all forms we see congruity

his/ her flaws will never be visible to your senses

as you've overlooked and assimilate them into your existence

you see perfection. nothing else

loving them has formed your life, to perfect it

or better, to actually create one

with love we learn

we grow and thrive

though for some they wither

it's always worth the journey

life may not be all love

but love is already part of life

first time punching card
first time willingly self-force to be on time
first JOB

It isn't too bad, the job. The only thing i hate about it is having to get up so early and to be there by 730. So much like the life back in school. I walk to the place when there are only streaks of peach lining in the sky, just like the other students that can still hardly open their eyes, only difference is that i am not uniform clad.
Handling primary schoolers. that's my work. So basically i check their homeworks, give them some tuition on bm, bi, maths and science. And occasionally i have to do some translating work, from mandarin to english/bm or take care of kids in the kindergarten, just to help out. Truly an eye-opener, this job. These kids are so so pure, esp the 3 year olds, mere toddlers. They show so much of their emotions and character overtly, and the way they interact is so riveting. You just need to sit down there and i can guarantee you pure amusement. Notwithstanding, they can make your head throb in dire need of paracetamol. And to remember their names is never an easy job, cuz when u need to scream at them and you happen to scream the wrong name, u'll find the kid looking at you blankly for a sec, and then back to his/her mischief. Your almost croaky voice very much wasted.
And at 1230 i'll get my coveted daily release. I will be so so tired by then that a siesta straight after lunch becomes a necessity.

Btw, Yogazone's fine. Still prefer monasa yoga in Ss2 though.

Got my a levels results today. So besides the C i got for my econs 4, i'm very much pleased with it. Am glad that i fullfill all the conditions for my unis offer ;-)

I put up a night in the hostel yesterday. And being there brought me mixed feelings, which neither have words to make clear of nor are possible to verbalise. You know sometimes when ppl say that things change but ppl don't, i feel exactly the opposite. You go back to the same place, hoping to recollect the same feelings you've once had there, but to realise however hard you try it would be to little avail. I've always hoped that i could be like the characters in movies, because when they recall past happenings, they will be able to hear the exact words that've been said(by the exact voice) at the exact spot. I think i'm very much able to visualise what used to happen when i look at the place, but never to hear those words, though i remember them. It would be cool if you can have the total uncut replay of something, especially those that have made you laugh so hard that you cried.

If only i can bend time and space...

Nov 19 2006

[Selina dyeing my streaks of hair red in nabila's room. The once messy room is now cruelly cleared]

by nabila J

[me] i'm going to apply to UTAR
[mum] why?
[me] they have the course actuarial science there.

then the silence, one where so much of thoughts were invading our minds it was hardly even silence for us.

[mum] you are going to UK. i'll make sure of it. YOU-ARE-GOING.

I left the room almost instantaneously, not wanting her to see my damp cheeks.

Just how can someone love me so much?

CNY 07 with buddies

BBQ At ShuLin's new place.

020307

I had to run cuz it was captured on self-timer, thus the weird position

Started off with a peace

then to a love (Inn's head protruding)

then a weird octagon from christinal

finally a perfect love, with no signs of hsieh ni whatsoever.

the pursuit of happYness

It's a beautiful story. Not to mention that it's a real one.

Will Smith was such an influential character and i can TOTALLY feel the happYness

I was to the brink of tearing.

OK fine. Well I was actually over the parapet.

and little Christopher was a real charm.

you HAVE to watch this. SERIOUSLY. Just go watch it.