ALL people have their ups and downs.. which is perfectly normal...and at times you just feel so so down that you think you are the only one who is undergoing the hell-like eternal spiritual torture..
it's been quite a black week for me...with what aforementioned is occuring one of these days.... heard lots and seen lots of cases that teachers practise double standards on students.. and it just come to me as a matter-of-fact thing in real life...but for something you just won't. feel the pinch until you ARE the first party.. victimised by teachers practising favouritism...goodness.... being penalised for something you have not done wrongly..let alone being appreciated..seriously hate them...it has just been internalised in that teacher's mind that one person is definitely better than the other.. there is no way to alter it...
have been very blur the whole week...go to classes just to realise that there's a test.. and to worsen the situation... various illnesses set in...all attacking at once... thank god they aren't that severe... guess it's because i have not been involving myself in much sports lately..haiz... sad sad...
arghH~~
*NAMASTE*

Along the path i have treaded on for the past eighteen years, I have experienced a few bereavements, all of which are losses of relatives. As for each there is a similarity, they all left me dumbstruck, wreathed in dim but overwhelmingly condensed mist, and i would be too suffocated to perceive that these sudden events were actual happenings, as though each loss is not credible ; i will cry hard tonight and expect that the next morning i will have them doing things they had always been doing, talking to me the normal stuffs they used to say.. though i know clearly this will never happen again.. they have indeed..LEFT... i do not know about others...as for me, i wouldn't cry much at the point of time when i lost them...but i will sink increasingly deeper to pure grief when i grew more and more uneasy with their absence.. the places which were once flourished by their presence, actions, has now dwindled to nothingness.. People always say that a thing or a person's worth will only be considered once they are no longer around.. we never appreciate things we have in our hands.. but desire longingly for the things others have, which might not be held important once again, by the possessers..
I was walking with a friend of mine yesterday after class, happily chatting away...and we got so carried away with the conversation that we did not come to realise she was just walking under the automatic bar which stops cars from going through to the car park.. my heart stopped pounding for a moment or two when the hard bold metal bar came swishing agressively down past her head by an inch at most, ruffling her hair.. the proximity of her being clobbered down to unconsciousness is not any triffling thing to laugh about...there has been such a potential casualty ! and the worst part is that i was standing few metres away, clearly witnessing the whole process**my god...she could not have been luckier ..
what could have happened if she was not that lucky? the impulse the bar generates is much too great..i just can't imagine the consequences... i might just lose her... goodness...
more often than not we only come to appreciate something or someone when we lose them...when there will be no further interactions with the people we once loved, whom we never care to show that we do care...so, people, take a look around at people you care about and thank god they are still here, treasure them...and never forgo the chance of sparing them any goodness you have, or there might be deep dark regrets in you when something do happen...

and please...never walk near any automatic bars...

IT has been a long hectic week... though i still manage to find enough time for sleeping... which is the thing i enjoy the most... college has been busy...and there has been quite a great change in college... kinda up-tight ambience... reading room has never been so packed before... you can basically see students busy flippin books and havin great loads of discussion on studies...it's kinda abnormal actually... cuz it's suppose to be holiday NOW... my frenz who are in form six are happily enjoyin themselves...travellin here and there... and us? the london examination board is so damn weird...with the external exams in JANUary...my god...can't even prepare well for chinese new year..can't help out with cleanin the houz all...haiz...and can't even have sufficient time to go shoppin! goodness.... thank god it doesn't fall on the exact day of chinese new year... curse the system...
watched zorro 2 last week...it turned out to be better than what i have expected... though i still think that the first was nicer... antonio and his ever loving catherine have not lost their charm... but somehow grew more overwhelmingly enticing... such a great couple, a second-to-none combination...
well people around have been talking a great deal about the movie harry potter the whole week... these excitin little chit chats among those harry potter great fans have somehow subliminally pull others to go watch it... like a great phenomenal must-watch for any normal movie-goers... the book 4 dat is hp and the goblet of fire was a very entertaining one.. and is somehow different from the first three... cuz it basically revolves around the triwazard tournament which involves so called wizzards and witches from other countries besides the usual londoners..with greater diversity... and so far ppl who have watched it gave quite good comments.. so i really look forward to watchin it this sunday..

the Hollywood star

i finally went for a movie i have been craving for so long..hmm...corpse bride... wasn't one of those very good ones .. but in all...satisfying and entertaining enough.. i have never been dissapointed by any movies starring Johnny Depp, one of my favourite actor, the actor with greatest versatility...
i can still recall the first time i set eyes on the figure who is now a highly successful actor...
i was only like, twelve? he was so different then..innocent-looking...has somehow gone through a metamorphosis to such a mature guy who has got himself labelled as one of the most sexy, beautiful person on earth.. the first movie i saw starring him was sleepy hollow...and my gosh, he was such a catch...fidgety little doctor... and then he evolved to a darn manly lad in 'chocolat'...with the long straight hair tied neatly in a ponytail... such different dispostion.. and then the famous pirate whom so many admire... then down to something sentimental--> finding neverland...one of my favourite movie... so touching... beyond words...i seriously shed tears for this one... he continued to entertain his fellow fans with ' charlie and the chocolate factory' ..one of the masterpieces of great author Roald Dahl... wittily exhilarating... Dahl would be so proud to see this himself..and once again you can see his soul entwined with that of the characters... he challenges every possible character he could think of... and he has always been a success...just think how on earth did he evolve from the solemnly quaint author in ' the secret window' to the boisterous Mr Willy Wonka.... good is just never enough for this miracle of hollywood...
just hope that this drop-out-since-sixteen fellow will continue to amaze us with more good movies....