A 12 years old Chinese supporter wrote about his once-in-a-lifetime encounter with the Chinese team during the 2006 All England. It touches the heart of any badminton fans out there and makes us wonder if we can be 12 years old again...
and i am darn sure any badminton fan can really understand and feel his happiness from just reading his story...

Here is a story of a 12 years old Chinese fan, Baderz_Jas-->

I am a Chinese supporter-12yrs old,I speak Cantonese and know a tiny little bit of Mandarin. My sister,mum and I went to watch the 2006 All England Open Championship in the NIA. Friday 20th was our first day,quarter-finals day. I was very excited to watch Lin Dan ,Chen Jin and lots more as I haven't watched live badminton since 2005 AE. When ever any players from China were playing, I was shouting China and Lin Dan Jia You as loud as I could. Chen Jin didn't play very well,he was slower and his smashes weren't as powerful as people said it was. Lin Dan wasn't aggresive enough in the first game against Kenneth Jonassen which was 15-10,but then he smashed nearly every point and won the second game 15-3. Saturday 21st,semi-finals day. My family and I were walking to a hotel see my friend Dominic(the person who gave us the live scores) and we saw Lin Dan jogging on the streets to warm up for his match against Lee Chong Wei. So we went to him and took pictures and I asked him to sign a picture which I took with him last year,then for the first time I saw him smiling We got inside the hotel and saw players from most of the countries staying in that hotel. My sister,Dominic and I took pictures with Candra Wijaya,Pi Hongyan,Lee Hyun Il,Widiato Natsir,Peter Gade,Zhang Jun,Wei Yili,Zhang Yawen,Xie Xingfang +lots more When they started playing I was shouting for China and Lin Dan really loud again. When Lin Dan was losing in the third game against Lee Chong WeiI shouted even louder so I lost my voice When he won he took his black t-shirt off and went through to talk to the coaches about the match. So me and one of my friends sprinted as fast as I could into the authorised area even though we don't have a pass We went up to Lin Dan,he asked for a signatlure and asked I for his t-shirt,he just gave it to me!!! It was the shirt he actually wore,it was very wet which made it heavy. I was so happy that I couldn't go to bed until half-past two in the morning. I thought it couldn't get better,BUT IT DID!!! Sunday 22nd,finals day. That morning we saw Lin Dan jogging again as we were going to met up with my friend in Jury's Inn,this time he gave me a five When we got inside the arena the MD was just about to start a member of the China team came down and told us that one of the coaches has invited me to go and join them on the players' stand and that the coach has a son-13yrs old. When she left we thought 'what just happened' When the MD finished I went up the players' stand with the woman who came down and I sat between Fu Haifeng and Cai Yun!!! I found out that Li YongBo invited me I was shocked. The headcoach of the best badminton country wanted me to sit with him I chatted with some of the players and coaches,they were all very polite and looked after me as well. When they started the XD we were all cheering for Zhang Jun and Gao Ling. It was so nervous when we were watching them because Robertson/Emms had 8-10serves to win the match in the second game. In the third game Zhang/Gao totally trashed the English pair 15-1,Nathan Robetson's body language was absolutely awful After the XD we all went behind the stand and played games with our hands Then we didn't watch the WS because it was China vs China.After that match it was the MS between Lin Dan and Lee Hyun Il. We were cheering for him every point(especially me). When he slipped and twisted his knee we were very worried about him because he couln't move,but when he gave Li YongBo a wave meaning he's alrite we weren't as worried After he won we all went down to clap when he comes round doing the lap of honour. Li YongBo told me that Lin Dan is going to gave me the racket his used. I was shocked again! LYB was so kind and polite to all the players,he is really funny as well. Then he went to the Doping Room where the doctor had a look at his knee,so I went in with the chinese woman holding a bag of ice for Lin Dan. His knee didn't look nice. I could tell that he was in a lot of pain Then I got told to get out of the Doping Room because children aren't allowed in. Dominic and I had to wait for about ten minutes before he came out gaving me his racket and saying 'Thank You' to me,then I said 'Xie Xie' then Dominic took a picture of us with his racket in my hands That night we went to a chinese resturant called Tin Tin and saw the whole China team! I went over there and got Chen Hong,Fu Haifeng and Cai Yun to sign pictures I took with them last year. The players sat on two big tables,Lin Dan and Xie Xingfang were sitting with all the coaches on another table. Then when we were going home I went over to say bye and thank you to LYB,Lin Dan and all the players. They all said thank you and gave a fives! I can't believe all of this happened in just three days!!! My dream really has come TRUE."

Was cLeanin a tiny corner of my house when i saw this..... the tiredness creepin in my each and every muscle dwindled to nuthingness at once...so cute the tiny little hole...i am not even sure that it's one...
guesS jerry does live here...but i don't have no tom here ...hahah...

was suPPosed to watch the memoirs of geisha today...but the movie time was way too late..got no choice so watch pride and prejudice instead...suppose to watch it at home...cuz i always think that this type of movie should be enjoyed at home .. the art of such movies tend to assert itself better then... couldn't really enjoy the movie cuz the group of ppl beside me just practically chat their way through the movie...damn * DAMN...they just pay to come inside and taLk...what is bloody wrong with this ppl man... and when the sad part of the movie came, they normal sniggers broke into laughters...idiOts...real IDIOTS...i hate to be interupted...especially with this type of movie which requires so much of attentiveness..with all the classically phrased lines... so hard to catch those heavily slanged words....anyway, did manage to watch part of the movie.. it was generally much happier than sense and sensibility... but i wonder if such maN-->mR.dArcy exists....or even...eXISted... eLizabeth is one blessed lass if such stories were ever true...
i still think cHarles dickens's NICHOLAS NICKELBY is really good...even though i only watched the movie...it was really touching..with a sharp swerving twist in the end... impressive work of dickens...i would really wanna watch oliver twist...but i doubt that i will go to cinema for that... hopefully i could get the dvd....
chineSe new Year 's only four days away... feel both excited and inexplicably sad at the same time...cuz it's not as happy as the 'olden' days were.. i seriously miss the sheer innocence of the past when i come to scrutinize the void of emptiness now.. with ppl we once loved no longer presenting themselves during such happy occasions..it does change the mood...still remember the time when my brother experimented all the fire crackers he bought and created one of his kind...it was daunting...but his 'creation' turned out to be breathtakin....it emblazoned the darK night with the greatness of light... and i still remember i always forced him to buy fire crackers for me...but i never dare go near any of it...stupidity...haha....those were the days....god i really miss you ako...
guess life does change from one phase to another...but sometimes deliberate and fast switches leaves you in much incredulity...and the only thing you can do is to meekly accept it...
anyway..HaPPIE CHINESe nEW YEaR!!

I was busy for preparing exams the whole week that i totally forgot about all england tournament! mY father just told me who are the semi-finalists and i am like wow...it's already semi's...anyway, quite proud of Malaysia this time round...cuz as usual lee chong wei got through...with three other semi-finalists from three different countries-->lindan fr cHina, gaDe fr denmark, lee hyun II fr korea ; then as for men's doubles three pairs of maLaysias faught through quarters....impressive...go maLaysia~~m'sia Boleh~~hahahah

yiPee!!
loOks like it'll be a good head start for my badminton star xia xuanze this year...just got updated with the swiss open results and hahahh...he got into semi's! I am almost drawn to the brink of thinking him retired as a trainer or something after quite bad performances last year...until he's given away his retained title as the world champion....well..look's like he really manipulates his trickiness this time.... with his deceiving drop shots all...but semi's gonna be quite tough for him this time cuz he's up against the dane peter gade, whom i must say is really in his top form despite some minor injuries...he did impressively well in copenhegen masters' 05 just two weeks ago..very precise smashes and good net play....but hopefully xia's in his top form as well..then winning the title would be a relatively good birthday present for him....
the whole week had been very boring....not so much of activities....slept the week through and keep thinking about chinese new year...goodness...thinking about plans all when exams haven't even started....aikss....
seriously hope xia'll get his way through to final!! damn excited to see him play again~~kakkka

Year 2005 had been a fast one....looking back at the things happened last year will get me burst in laughters ...indulge in some playful chuckles..or just a mere upstretch of lips...sad happenings are there to stay in memory... though they were never meant to be remembered...knew a whole loads of new friends throughout the year...especially in national service which gave me the chance to know really different kinds of people whom i have never met before ... not before them... did loads of crazy stuffs and underwent real ups and downs with the bunch of them...then back to school life before i realised half of the year's been passed... continue the boring life with books and lectures...but lectures in college weren't that heavy...as compared to the old secondary one which stretched up to seven hours excluding private tuition ... had to stay in hostel as college was kinda far from home...it wasnt too bad...know some real cool friends there as well... then in september two of my good friends left m'sia for studies...that was really saddening....continued my life in college and before long mocks started revealing themselves...then all sorts of festive celebrations set in...they all happened in a fast swish...haha...happy moments never stay long enough for you to realise them....
A neW brand year has annouced its arrival... heralding a whole new series of surprises .. both good and bad ones... there will be more to explore...more to be experienced ... won't set myself any resolutions...because they never really work well for me....just hope that my family and friends will stay healthy and happy..and the world will be disasters-free and attacks-free ... and hopefully i can equip myself with greater maturity in dealing with the rough turbulence in life that is yet to strike...

It's been quite a merry christmas this year.... gobbled down lots of nice food practically... had sushi--sakei sushi for lunch..hmm... sushi for christmas ...that's a bit weird... after the quite heavy lunch( cuz i don't really always find myself full eating sushi..haha)...went around ikano and did some window shopping..hoho...nice setting all...just love those christmas trees....with all those trifling but essential bells and ribbons hanging..such sweet decor....and after some while went to 'maCHe'... quite an interesting restaurant..with quite creative ideas i' ve never seen before...it's of swiss basically...had some desserts there...then idle around and went car riding around dunno where....then went to one of my good old friend house...kinda gathering for close friends...miss them lots...so nice seeing them again.....had turkey with cranberry sauce...ahha...that's nice.....then sat round together and share some precious moments.. was kinda guilty cuz i 've got lots to catch up with them...spent too little time with them lately...as i am the one furthest from klang besides khers and cl....can't really afford to meet up that frequently...so i seriously treasured the night....even though my best friend didn't turn up... it was basically a moment of sheer contentment...
didn't really study much since holiday starts...let alone reading any books....haiz...bought a book today-- tuesdays with morrie....wanted to buy it long long time ago...finally got it..hoho....but i made it a point to only read it after i've finished preparing for exams.... got to really study this week... exams' practically nearing alarmingly...haiz.... hope that i will be more 'productive' this week to grant myself a good new year celebration later the week....

thUmBs uP fOr KiNg kOnG~~

feel kinda happy this week cuz finally the house's not as empty as before...dear sister is back to bring more noise to the house...not that she's a noisy type..but somehow the presence of one just makes big difference....but it's a pity ako 's not here...damn miss him man..hope that he's doing real fine now...
couldn't really update myself with the badminton world cup latest results which is held this week cuz i am practically stuck in the hostel with no connection with the outside world whatsoever ...but just got the latest result and i am seriously surprised and happy...because the thai star boonsak ponsana's up against lindan...fuhh...it's like damn long since i last saw ponsana play any finals although he's quite good...so this would be one of a kind MS final...not the usual chinese vs chinese finals... we shall see two totally different players with utterly different styles and strategies competing for the world cup...lots of people are saying that it will be a sure win for lindan... wonder how ponsana will deal with these comments...it would be good if he never bears in mind that he's fighthing the world no.1...this will kinda make him perform in a more relaxed manner and a high quality perfomance will assert by itself....
watched the fog yesterday...it was kinda freaky and not that scary after all...although i practically coiled up and snuggled close to my friend throughout the movie...maybe it's because of the empty seat beside me...it kinda have some extra effect...i didn't know beforehand that the movie stars selma blair..hmm....she straightaway reminded me of the movie cruel intention..one of my fav....gonna watch the movie kingkong tomorrow with my family..since it's an old movie redirected, this will be an interest of my parents...heard that it's a three hour long movie...fuhh...gonna be tired man....hope that it will be a nice one or i will just sleep soundly through the three hours with the kingkong roaring at my ear drums...
got this from a friend...give it a try...

http://www.winterrowd.com/maze.swf

hohoho~~
I will only have one class this friday and that's it! declared holiday...haha...actually i was already in the holiday mood since last week...wasn't even focusing on my preparations for mocks...close friends-->my roomy would have noticed the significant change...looking at the same line for the past half an hour and can't even understand(or a more accurate term would be realising) what the heck i was reading...one glance at the first sentence will get me plunge straight into thoughts of how to spend my holidays...now that my sister's coming back( GOD it was a surprise!!)..hehe... wonderful plans start to set in~~
kinGkong's out this week!!and yes i wil make sure i watch it...it's been long since i last saw adrien brody on screen...but sad he wasn't playing the piano this time... this movie's been long anticipated by many.. hope that it'll not be dissapointing~~
and yes my sister, i finally found time to do the little riddle you gave me~~hehe..the riddle's been posted before...so for those who've not come across it....give it a try :-)

Einstein once wrote a riddle of which he said 98 % of the people would not be able to solve it.

There are 5 houses in 5 different colors. In each house lives a man
with a different nationality. The 5 owners drink a certain type of
beverage, smoke a certain brand of cigar, and keep a certain pet. No
owners have the same pet, smoke the same brand of cigar or drink the
same beverage.

Who keeps the fish?

HINTS:

1. The Brit lives in the red house.
2. The Swede has a dog.
3. The Dane drinks tea.
4. The green house is on the left of the white house.
5. The owner of the green house drinks coffee.
6. The person who smokes pall mall has birds.
7. The owner of the yellow house smokes Dunhills.
8. The man living in the center house drinks milk.
9. The Norwegian lives in the first house.
10. The man who smokes blends lives next to the one who has cats.
11. The man who has horses lives next to the man who smokes Dunhills.
12. The man who smokes blue master drinks beer.
13. The German smokes prince.
14. The Norwegian lives next to the blue house.
15. The man who smokes blends has a neighbor who drinks water.

Classes this week had been in quite a mess...with all the venues changed, students have to do more walking from one block to another...and sometimes we just got so irritated by the constant switch of venues that we resorted to missing the classes...the week started off quite well as the mock exams results turned out to be better than what i expected... especially for economics.. wasn't quite a good and fast writer for those lengthy paragraphs.. so the results will be an incentive for me to work harder for the externals in jan...the week was supposed to be further festooned by my gathering up with old school mates on wednesday... but the plan was sadly cancelled...haiz...and on the same day i was being verbally 'assaulted' again... by the same old fellow who did the same thing last week...but this time was worse...i basically broke into feeble splinters.... some ppl just do not know that words cuts deeper than any other thing does.. speaks without the considering the consequences...real egoistic fellow.. luckily my housemates were there to support me... they really cheered me up... a BIG thanks to them....a little compensation was been made over the unhappy happenings... went to catch Narnia yesterday...the storyline was quite good...and the characters seem to really exert the essence of it...and Tilda Swinton was so damn good...she really brings out the evilness of the white witch...just like what she did in constantine as the angel Gabriel....you can really get intimidated by this typical english look lady....and one thing...i had secret recipe's cake yesterday as well....hmm...it's been long since i last savoured any of them...was happily indulging myself .. and to end the post, i would like to share a little story with a great meaning... There was once this boy with very nasty disposition.He always speak of foul words that really hurt people around him. One day, his father approached the cheeky lad and said to him,"hey son, would you mind a little try-out to control your temper? It works this way: every time you said something bad to people, you hit a nail on the wall on the backyard ; and everytime you manage to control your temper, you remove one nail from the wall,deal?"the son gave a strong nod and took up the deal. Initially with his old bad temper, he hit lots of nails everyday on the wall; and as days passed by, he got better and improved his manners that the number of nails of the wall decreased When finally all the nails were removed, the boy was very proud and euphorically told his father about his achievements. This was what the father told him in turn," It's good that you can finally control your temper and mind your words. But son, do you realise that with every nail you hitted on the wall, it leaves an ugly mark on the wall...even when you have removed it ; this works the same for people, once you have said something that hurts them, no matter how you compensate for the mistake, the words will leave an eternal cut ,as words said can never be taken back, especially the ones that hurt."

ALL people have their ups and downs.. which is perfectly normal...and at times you just feel so so down that you think you are the only one who is undergoing the hell-like eternal spiritual torture..
it's been quite a black week for me...with what aforementioned is occuring one of these days.... heard lots and seen lots of cases that teachers practise double standards on students.. and it just come to me as a matter-of-fact thing in real life...but for something you just won't. feel the pinch until you ARE the first party.. victimised by teachers practising favouritism...goodness.... being penalised for something you have not done wrongly..let alone being appreciated..seriously hate them...it has just been internalised in that teacher's mind that one person is definitely better than the other.. there is no way to alter it...
have been very blur the whole week...go to classes just to realise that there's a test.. and to worsen the situation... various illnesses set in...all attacking at once... thank god they aren't that severe... guess it's because i have not been involving myself in much sports lately..haiz... sad sad...
arghH~~
*NAMASTE*

Along the path i have treaded on for the past eighteen years, I have experienced a few bereavements, all of which are losses of relatives. As for each there is a similarity, they all left me dumbstruck, wreathed in dim but overwhelmingly condensed mist, and i would be too suffocated to perceive that these sudden events were actual happenings, as though each loss is not credible ; i will cry hard tonight and expect that the next morning i will have them doing things they had always been doing, talking to me the normal stuffs they used to say.. though i know clearly this will never happen again.. they have indeed..LEFT... i do not know about others...as for me, i wouldn't cry much at the point of time when i lost them...but i will sink increasingly deeper to pure grief when i grew more and more uneasy with their absence.. the places which were once flourished by their presence, actions, has now dwindled to nothingness.. People always say that a thing or a person's worth will only be considered once they are no longer around.. we never appreciate things we have in our hands.. but desire longingly for the things others have, which might not be held important once again, by the possessers..
I was walking with a friend of mine yesterday after class, happily chatting away...and we got so carried away with the conversation that we did not come to realise she was just walking under the automatic bar which stops cars from going through to the car park.. my heart stopped pounding for a moment or two when the hard bold metal bar came swishing agressively down past her head by an inch at most, ruffling her hair.. the proximity of her being clobbered down to unconsciousness is not any triffling thing to laugh about...there has been such a potential casualty ! and the worst part is that i was standing few metres away, clearly witnessing the whole process**my god...she could not have been luckier ..
what could have happened if she was not that lucky? the impulse the bar generates is much too great..i just can't imagine the consequences... i might just lose her... goodness...
more often than not we only come to appreciate something or someone when we lose them...when there will be no further interactions with the people we once loved, whom we never care to show that we do care...so, people, take a look around at people you care about and thank god they are still here, treasure them...and never forgo the chance of sparing them any goodness you have, or there might be deep dark regrets in you when something do happen...

and please...never walk near any automatic bars...

IT has been a long hectic week... though i still manage to find enough time for sleeping... which is the thing i enjoy the most... college has been busy...and there has been quite a great change in college... kinda up-tight ambience... reading room has never been so packed before... you can basically see students busy flippin books and havin great loads of discussion on studies...it's kinda abnormal actually... cuz it's suppose to be holiday NOW... my frenz who are in form six are happily enjoyin themselves...travellin here and there... and us? the london examination board is so damn weird...with the external exams in JANUary...my god...can't even prepare well for chinese new year..can't help out with cleanin the houz all...haiz...and can't even have sufficient time to go shoppin! goodness.... thank god it doesn't fall on the exact day of chinese new year... curse the system...
watched zorro 2 last week...it turned out to be better than what i have expected... though i still think that the first was nicer... antonio and his ever loving catherine have not lost their charm... but somehow grew more overwhelmingly enticing... such a great couple, a second-to-none combination...
well people around have been talking a great deal about the movie harry potter the whole week... these excitin little chit chats among those harry potter great fans have somehow subliminally pull others to go watch it... like a great phenomenal must-watch for any normal movie-goers... the book 4 dat is hp and the goblet of fire was a very entertaining one.. and is somehow different from the first three... cuz it basically revolves around the triwazard tournament which involves so called wizzards and witches from other countries besides the usual londoners..with greater diversity... and so far ppl who have watched it gave quite good comments.. so i really look forward to watchin it this sunday..

the Hollywood star

i finally went for a movie i have been craving for so long..hmm...corpse bride... wasn't one of those very good ones .. but in all...satisfying and entertaining enough.. i have never been dissapointed by any movies starring Johnny Depp, one of my favourite actor, the actor with greatest versatility...
i can still recall the first time i set eyes on the figure who is now a highly successful actor...
i was only like, twelve? he was so different then..innocent-looking...has somehow gone through a metamorphosis to such a mature guy who has got himself labelled as one of the most sexy, beautiful person on earth.. the first movie i saw starring him was sleepy hollow...and my gosh, he was such a catch...fidgety little doctor... and then he evolved to a darn manly lad in 'chocolat'...with the long straight hair tied neatly in a ponytail... such different dispostion.. and then the famous pirate whom so many admire... then down to something sentimental--> finding neverland...one of my favourite movie... so touching... beyond words...i seriously shed tears for this one... he continued to entertain his fellow fans with ' charlie and the chocolate factory' ..one of the masterpieces of great author Roald Dahl... wittily exhilarating... Dahl would be so proud to see this himself..and once again you can see his soul entwined with that of the characters... he challenges every possible character he could think of... and he has always been a success...just think how on earth did he evolve from the solemnly quaint author in ' the secret window' to the boisterous Mr Willy Wonka.... good is just never enough for this miracle of hollywood...
just hope that this drop-out-since-sixteen fellow will continue to amaze us with more good movies....

fiNally the holiday is here!!

cOOL...gOt lots of plannings for this week...but the great start-off of this little hol is sadly stained by my sprained ankle..aikS...make things kinda difficult...even have to miss my yoga class yesterday..how sad...but never mind...it won't stop me from having a great week back in klang~~
can feel the mood of celebration...deeparaya...everyone seems to be happily indulging themselves in the hectic preparations... heralding the end of the few sad happenings in the country... ~~eternal remembrance of the first lady~~ the sun has shone much brighter with azure sky after those long dark gloomy rainy days...
and one thing which brightens me up the most....a string of great badminton tournaments are coming up!! firstly, hong kong open- a six star tournament is starting tomorrow...with all the first class badmin stars showing up ... you have my support, taufik hidayat!! then, china open....it's gonna be so much fun... ready to open my eyes for great matches~~ but how sad xia xuanze 's not lying his finger on the medals... but he remains the forever champion in me~~
go taufik!!

they do say that first impressions count... and not till recent that i found out that i always give people a bad first impression...i never really spare strangers any smile... seemed so unapproachable and distant...
We all live in a very dangerous world where the bad overwhelms the good...with so many evil intentions wafting around.. all masqueraded by angelic faces..you wouldn't be disposed to show the good and soft side of you...
why has it come to this stage...why is everyone so engrossed with the busy life they led without coming to a halt, looking back the things that they have done or even contributed...or is there even any contribution? award yourself a genuine smile if you have indeed done something righteous.... and ponder for a moment if you have not...and compensate for the negative consequences you have incurred...and for the noble ones...try to formulate remedies so that we can make the world a better one.... well, doing something good can never be forced out of someone ....but at least don't contribute to 'bad' things...like they said, if you can't save, don't waste...
i seriously doubt how long can human live with the present practices continue... it surely wouldn't be long before we extinct.. not being pessimistic or what..there is a high possibility...whoever have studied the second law of thermodynamics would know that the world would end, scientifically...

The second law of thermodynamics (the entropy law or law of entropy) was formulated in the middle of the last century by Clausius and Thomson following Carnot's earlier observation that, like the fall or flow of a stream that turns a mill wheel, it is the "fall" or flow of heat from higher to lower temperatures that motivates a steam engine. The key insight was that the world is inherently active, and that whenever an energy distribution is out of equilibrium a potential or thermodynamic "force" (the gradient of a potential) exists that the world acts spontaneously to dissipate or minimize. All real-world change or dynamics is seen to follow, or be motivated, by this law. So whereas the first law expresses that which remains the same, or is time-symmetric, in all real-world processes the second law expresses that which changes and motivates the change, the fundamental time-asymmetry, in all real-world process. Clausius coined the term "entropy" to refer to the dissipated potential and the second law, in its most general form, states that the world acts spontaneously to minimize potentials (or equivalently maximize entropy), and with this, active end-directedness or time-asymmetry was, for the first time, given a universal physical basis. The balance equation of the second law, expressed as S > 0, says that in all natural processes the entropy of the world always increases, and thus whereas with the first law there is no time, and the past, present, and future are indistinguishable, the second law, with its one-way flow, introduces the basis for telling the difference.

so, make full use of the resources we have in hand... there is no time for bad deeds, but there is alwayz an infinite space for good intentions.... strive to make the song sung by good charlotte 'the world is black', a history..an epidemic conquered...

"The World Is Black"
Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day and
No one really knows why this is happening
But it's happening
And everywhere you go it's just a different place
You get the same dark feeling
See the same sad faces
No one really cares that this is happening
We come into this world
And we all are the same
In that moment there's no one to blame
But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen
Living in this place it's always been this way
There's no one doing nothing so there's nothing changed
And I can't live when this world just keeps dying
It's dying
People always tell me this is part of the plan
That God's got everybody in His hands
But I can only pray that God is listening
Is He listening?
We're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see
But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen, seen
We come into this world
And we all are the same
And in that moment there's no one to blame
But we're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see
The world is blackAnd hearts are cold
There's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back(We can't go back)
It won't be the same(It won't be the same)
Forever changed(What will ever change)
By the things we've seen, seen, seen
Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day
And no one really knows why this is happening

reminiscences~

just too bored today so went car riding around my hometown...managed to notice some trifles of changes... we used to have only transnasional as the only one offering bus services..but now rapid KL has come down to klang...miss those times when i took bus rides to school and to tuitions..under the glaring sun-which has contributed to my tanned skin...i happen to be an extremely impatient being...thus i always opted to walk back home instead of waiting for the bus like--10 minutes??...hmm...it saves up 60 cents as well...wonder how much the bus fares have risen...passed by smk dato hamzah today..and it reminds me of the choir competition last year... i was under so much pressure..with so much to do within such tight schedules..and my studies was quite badly affected... but then again...i never regretted undertaking all those responsibilities...it was pure fun..with music all day long... and our efforts were being recognised...got the first for district level but secured only a third placing in the state level....
then went on to andalas and bukit tinggi area...saw the andalas hall which was also once the best place in my life... three years of volleyball tournaments there... there were ups and downs... but like everything else..i gained something from it...
chinese believes in the concept yin and yang...that is, there is always a corresponding negative energy to off-set the positive energy...this applies to everything... for instance..when we face failures, we always gain something from it....becoming tougher than before.....a blessing in disguise, or so they say....therefore, besides the negative impact it generates...there is a positive one....it's just a matter of how strong is the positive....
but then again...it's always easier said than done....when one faces failures...no one other than the first party will be able to feel the deep cut...no one will ever stand by you forever...we are all separate entities....we are always alone...figuratively....
it's sunday nite... and that means i will go back to KL tomorrow...starts off a busy week with classes that stretch right till saturday....it's gonna be a long week....sincerely hope something good happens... I~.~I

we dOn't always get to do what we wanted to...a simple example would be the fact that only a minority of them are actually having their true ambition as their profession now...we have loads in mind to accomplish...but how many have actually being realized? I have Always wanted to be an artist who seeks contentment in producing grand, soul-impressing artworks...or to be a musician who spends the rest of her life in vienna...composing an infinite collection of scores...but i had in fact made a decision of doing actuarial studies...well..not that i am very unhappy with this actuarial thingy all...because i like figures...but still, it's not i want from the deep side of me...
theY say that we should never relate hobbies with practical ambitions...but often do we find that successful people are always successful in doing things they like--> their hobbies, their obssession...and that is why we do not have too many successful beings around us...they do not dare to risk their whole life doing what they like, which are indeed often to be things that seemed not beneficial as a whole...which do not guarantee them luxuries... so, in order to survive in this mad mad world, we can only get involve in things which generate money at a lightning speed... indulgence in stuffs we love will only be a once-in-a-little-while treat... the only time when we can take off the masks we wear in this hypocritical life and breath in fresh, unpolluted air~~

Our lives always revolve around decisions..a powerful manipulation which even the masterminds fear... i have made an infinite number of decisions...which have in return made me the person i am today...and though i always happen to make the wrong choice, i am never tempted to go back to the past to alter them..
People do pop up the question of what's the greatest regrets of your lived life...but i have never tought of any..perhaps too huge a number to take into consideration?or do i not even have any...hmm....that would require much ponderings...
i had a small chat with my class mate the other day and out of sudden the subject of scholarships pop up...and i started thinking about my failures..first asean then jpa...got rejected one after another is such a pain..especially when you had pass the first round of interviews and stood the equal chance with the others...but nothing can be done...too many straight A1's around...i still remembered the time when i got my spm results...i was so upset by the subjects which stained the results...it was bm and my mother tongue language--mandarin...teachers and friends had always harped on the fact that the subject is always the hardest to score...and outstanding straight A1's students always got pulled down by an A2 in the subject...still i took up the challenge...but failed to proof that they are wrong *weeps*...people still ask me nowadays whether i regretted taking the sub....i give a strong NO...i am a chinese...and i love the language....
It's Saturday afternoon...miss those times when i played volleyball on saturdays...back in convent...it was so much fun...you always not only gain pysically from the sport...but mentally as well...it teaches you many stuff...and it goes the same for other sports...can't imagine people who never ever got involve in any sports...they are seriously depriving themselves from so much fun....but then again, i have not got myself into much sports since i started college...well even if i do, surely i wouldn't enjoy it as much as when i was playin with my fellow team mates~~
cHeeRs to CoNveNt KLaNg VolleYbAll tEaM!!