BiDding AdIeU

SECRETS

"We all have them and I think we're entitled to them. They make our lives more interesting, and when we decide to share them, our relationhip become more meaningful. The place where secrets are kept can also provide a haven, a retreat from the rest of the world, where one's identity can be shaped and reaffirmed, where being alone can bring security and peace. Still, secrets can be an awful burden to bear, especially if some sense of shame is attached to them, even if the source of shame is not the secret holder. Or the allure of our secrets can be too strong, strong enough to make us feel we can't live without them, that we wouldn't even be who we are without them." -bill clinton


To my beloved hostelmates -->sHaleen*SeLina*Becca*NAbiLa

without a doubt it was secrets that brought us closer,
but being truthful and fun loving all the time were the charms that tied our hearts together. cheers ;-)

my fellow hostel comrades [ july05-dec06 ]









and yes, my dear roomie sHaleen, luv ya lots~~

the day of guy fawkes failure * guy fawkes night * bonfire night * fireworks night

A popular British rhyme is often quoted on Guy Fawkes Night, in memory of the Gunpowder Plot:
Remember, remember, the 5th of November
The Gunpowder Treason and plot ;
I know of no reason why the Gunpowder Treason
Should ever be forgot.
Guy Fawkes, Guy Fawkes,
'Twas his intent.
To blow up the King and the Parliament.
Three score barrels of powder below.
Poor old England to overthrow.
By God's providence he was catch'd,
With a dark lantern and burning match
Holloa boys, Holloa boys, let the bells ring
Holloa boys, Holloa boys, God save the King!
Hip hip Hoorah !
Hip hip Hoorah !
A penny loaf to feed ol'Pope,
A farthing cheese to choke him.
A pint of beer to rinse it down,
A faggot of sticks to burn him.
Burn him in a tub of tar,'
Burn him like a blazing star.
Burn his body from his head,
Then we'll say: ol'Pope is dead.















* the trip to johor was great, thousand thanks to bila and her family...and it's the first time i got duit raya!! food was great as well, bila's mum literally stuffed us as much as she could....

watched two movies this week..open season was disappointing...sad..am looking forward to happy feet...afterall penguins are cute so even if the animation does not turn out to be good it wont be too bad...thanks to the cutey penguins...the prestige was awesome...one of the good movies which seem to be a rarity nowadays...christopher nolan was really a genius in manipulating the plots..turning a normal story to one which offers so much of suspense..and the style of delivering is simply superb...one of the jig-saw puzzle type of movie...seriously love it....christian bale's good as well...a real brash....and yes...the stunning scarlette johanson is forever lovely and riveting ;-) one of the must watch.....

a quotidiant one

haven't blogged for two months now...and thanks to deeparaya holiday i'm able to take a badly needed break, to online and to do whatever stuffs that the lack of time has been depriving me from all this while...last two months have been relatively busy...stressed out on the preparation for oxford interview...really am thankful to all my friends that have given superb ideas and guidance and support...lucky thing was that the interviewer did not ask any personal questions but just maths and maths and maths...some of which i dithered and i felt nothing but stupid not being able to answer them...however badly the interview went, it's finally over!! and i sort of celebrated the post-interview by spending some time with my hostel mates..played tanglung and candles and ya not to forget those delectable mooncakes!! absolutely in love with the mixed-nuts mooncake...am craving for it even at this moment...haha...wonder if there's any after-festivity-low-priced stocks available in the market now..hmm...
without fail in every long post i'd post my comments on the movies i've seen...so ...the last two months i've seen snakes, the banquet, on the edge, nanny mcphee, the devil wears prada, john tucker must die, rob-b-hood and eight below....so my takes-->

snaKes- a movie that i was practically in a shocked-mode most of the time, cuz snakes lie in my category of pets-of-aversion, along with sharks. The movie was fine overall, though graphic wasn't that good compared to anaconda.

thE baquet- excellently directed, love the setting. A little slow-paced however. Zi Yi escalated to an even higher level of performance.

oN the edge - a very emotional movie. reminds me of infernal affairs. it shows ever clearly that we are not always granted the luxury of choosing and forced to accept the predicament we've been put into, or worse still, to be glad of being in such states.

nanny mcphee - a light watch for people who wants some fairy tale after a hard day ;)

the devil wearS prada - standin ovation for meryl streep!! she's just so stylishly devilish and the way she sends your ego (which has alrealy dwindled to a paucity of basic self confidence the moment she sets her ever small but piercing sharp eyes on you) escalating down to nothing but self-hatred out of imperfections is something awe-inspiring...thanks to her the movie was superb.

john tUcker must die- hmm...the heart-throb from desperate housewives jesse metcalfe was an object to idolize in the movie...the funniest part was when he took estrogen and got all gay...it's amazing that he was willing to drop his man ego and put up a great perfomance of being a little more feminine.

rob-b-hood - something different from jackie chan. he and louis khoo made great parents and without fail the comedy tickled my nerves with some really hilarious scenes. Not to forget it got quite emotional in the end when the perfect matched parents tried to save the ohh-so-charming baby...shed some tears..just like nabila ;-)

Eight below - i kept the best till the last. this will be definitely be on my top ten must watch list ( though i've not started the list hehe). it's just so so good. really evocative and truly heart-felt. it tells so much of dogs, how faithful and how STRONG they are...how the dogs supported each other with their nature instinct. I dare say even those who HATE dogs will enjoy the movie, just give it a shot please....

so, done with the movies...really am in the holiday mood now...been goin out often...most prob will go to my frens' house tomolo for raya...and ya, going down to batu pahat with shaleen to visit my crazee nabila, cant wait!!

din get to wish the hindhus happy deepavali....still..happy deepavali and selamat hari raya to all muslims on globe ;-)

thoughts of idle ponder

aM in the middle of my longest holiday of the year...has been sleeping alot, which is truly the prime manifestation of a real holiday...got my second term exam results last friday...am glad i won't need to fritter away four hundred bugs to resit my accounting paper...

dear sis left for glasgow today at 2 am...thought it would be a quotidiant one like giving her a great hug squashing her out of breath or saying good luck that kinda stuff...instead i just gave her a slight hug and kinda avoided eye contact...dun wanna get myself emotional...which i did when she left...just hate to say goodbye..it's like swishing fast since the last time i went to klia but that was the arrival's...one minute she's happily doing her sudoku, drinking her coffee, watching desperate housewives, the next she's on her way back to the cold gloomy city...i don't even remember saying good luck...so hey if i didn't,sis, here's one huge wish of GOOD GREAT LUCK all the way just from klang...and ya also to dear khers and cl, best of luck for the one year ahead before i next get crazee with you guys...

went for lan class today...and the lecturer brought up some issue and did some work of criticism which i didn't really agree with...she says that she's perfectly cool about polygamy and thus the legal practice of muslims and she's totally against those who get divorce in order to plunge into a new relationship legally....how is it fair to your wives that you actually have to split attention to each of them equally cuz i dont think that husbands that can have that sort of ability are truly devoted to any one of the wives..ya it's true that you granted your first wife a title before moving on to the second but what the heck, if you're truly in love with one woman, i personally dun think that you'll be able to give the second or the third or whom ever other than the first your full self..unless you suffer from a bitterly serious memory loss that you dun even remember knowing who's the first...thus the one you love, or loved, and will therefore be able to engage in any relationship fresh...that being said, if you really dun find yourself as much in love with your spouse as before anymore, i think the justifiably right thing to do is to at least tell him/her and move on with your life with less burden...i am of course not encouraging divorce as there are other issues that needed to be dealt with, primarily children, if there's any, but somehow divorce's a hell lot more appropriate than polygamy, which to me is just a legal way of cheating on your wives...call me old-fashioned..

dear sis caught this few lines fr desperate housewives shown on tv the day when she was cleaning the room, which she found truly heartfelt and i really have to agree with her....

Two women were arguing on the street.


“Susan, all night long I’ve been trying to help you stop being so crabby. And you refused to let me help.” yells the older of the two women. “Why are you being this way? I’m just tryin’ to...to lighten things up!”

“Stop acting like tonight is about helping me. You wanted to go out and have fun and Lamont over there needed a date. So you set up a double date!”

“That’s not true!”

“Yes it is.” Susan sits down on the stairway.

“OK fine. It’s true.” admits the older woman. “I wanted to go out and have fun. But why shouldn’t I? You know how depressed I’ve been over my breakup with Morty.”

“Yeah, I do. And that’s what makes me so crazy. You know ...the difference between you and I is that you could be heartbroken and you can just...move on..” Susan sobs. “And I... I’m just...broken.”

“I know you’re sad.” anger finally dissipates from within the older woman. She wraps her arms around Susan.

“No, mom. I’m not sad. And I’m not crabby. I’m devastated, and you keep acting like all I need is a couple of aspirin.”



Silence.



“Mom, Morty was just...one guy in a series of guys for you. And Mike...he was the one. Why don’t you get that?”

That was so deep....surprisingly from the ever fidgety susan mayer.

*PiCs*

cHinese have this saying--> picture speaks a thousand words. So here's a miscellany of them...

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Days Of leIsure are Not always nice to savour--> Kaleidoscopic life

Alrite...college started three weeks ago and it's been very noticeably different from last semester..i basically have only 16 hours of lecture per week and have lots of time to kill...surprisingly i kinda miss the good old busy days where i just spent hell lots of time doing maths questions and missing lots of sleep...it's quite an extreme change now that for some days my lecture only starts at two and ends at four...too leisurely paced i would say...i even started going malls on weekdays (like last monday) and do some shopping at hours which i would normally be having lectures...coolness...that's how life's been too good that it's like holiday everyday...however days of leisure such as these do normally culminate in money budgetting problems...cons of shopping-->argH...tell me about it....
watched quite a few movies : Just My Luck, Pirates of the Carribean 2 and the lake house. sO, as usual my takes on these movies....JML was fine for some good laughs and doing some unwinding job i would need after a long day....well the long awaited movie of johnny depp was kinda disapointing..a bit too draggy and it seems like they were just trying too hard to force some sense of humour into any scene possible that it seemed a little too desperate...but i do like the beginning part when depp was mistook as the god by some tribe that he was to be burned as a sacrifice...i wonder what happened to the poor dog...haha....and one more thing, the plots did not progress smooth enough that each plot was just bluntly cut off from one another...and the switch of plots often leave the audience baffled, who turned around in search of other faces contorted with puzzlement just to reassure themselves that they are not the only one not getting grip of the story ( fully at least)...hmm...speak of disapointment....the Lake House..haha....starring my all time favourite Keanu Reeves...still a lovable guy though he's in his forties... a typical slowly paced romance....but this one's quite a catch in that the time element it introduced was quite confusing with lots of flashbacks....really like the idea...somehow the puzzle fits perfectly well by the end of the story....and not to mention the lake house itself is such a beauty...a house made entirely of glass..it's just so cool...but privacy's a thing to abandon as said in the movie.......
my 19th birthday was a good one.....hostel mates decided to pay for my pussy cat dolls beach party ticket...appreciated it...the concert however was quite a disapointment...they put up a very short 45 minutes performance altogether...the live performance wasn't very good and i must say that they were not good at getting the crowd (and not to mention that the crowd was already so D-E-A-D)...so besides that, i had a mini-post concert-birthday surprise from my hostel mates..real sweet of them...then a classmate of mine treated me to a really satisfying meal at strudels, thanks kathik..went to strudels again today to treat some classmates..was quite disheartened when i couldnt have the blueberry strudels..will definitely add that to my must-try list of food....had double celebration with my family and am going to have a late celebration with my fellow good friends back in klang tomorrow....and i just found out something few days ago...according to my mum, i was born on the 1st day of the second month of June following the lunar calendar( apparently 1987 was a leap year with a double month of june)...so basically i will only celebrate my chinese birthday every 20++ years and strictly speaking i am not even one year old now following the lunar calendar..haha...that's great....i can be old yet so young ^.^




CutTing towArDs mY LasT yEar of t33n ;-)

Exam's been over like only one week but it 'd already seemed like ages...guess i had a really eventful and busy week then...alrite so wat was i basically busying with?? well the following two days after the last paper was quite an irony in some way...cuz i was busy shoppin for prom which fell on last thursday...shoppin's fun(given that u have some good money in hand to splurge) but if it's like hunting for stuffs under the pressure of seeing the clock ticking menacingly and you had yet lots to look for and the absence of sale's not helping you...you go like...why do ppl love shopping??hahaa...that however only remains a temporary issue....it won't be a crude generalisation that girls forever love shopping...then came thursday...was a real busy day....manage to catch the earliest superman returns at 11.45...wasn't really good though the movie...and my body was aching after the almost three hours long movie....think spiderman's much more interesting...talking bout movies...seriously can't wait to see captain jack sparrow on screen again...just hope that hopes don't always lead to dissapointment... after the movie...went back to hostel and prepared for prom...managed to get some shut eye then....prom was fine...get to see ppl looking their best and snap pics with fellow classmates and friends...performances were mediocre except for the first two performances especially the belly dancing which was really impressive..and the dancing troupe was said to have come from klang...haha....food was satisfactory but wasn't really anything special...after the late night....went back to hostel and started packing for the trip to perhentian....managed to have a little chitchat with becca and shaleen before we swayed subconsciously across the earth-slumberland border and had a sound sleep...and before we really sunk into a good sleep, the ever nettling sound of alarm graced the morning's silence and we have to fight against the sluggishness and hurried ourselves to last minute packing.....reached bus station almost two hours before the ride and the subsequent eight hours of bus ride was a real torment....reached kuala terengganu by five in the afternoon and was so exhausted..but manage to have ais kacang later and becca's parent pampared us with a scrumptious dinner so dat really helped to brighten up the day, or to be more precise, ligthen up the night....hahah....
got up early next morning to catch the 8.30 bus to kuala besut which means we were to endure another two hours of torturing bus ride...never knew the jetty to pulau perhentian is that far from k.terengganu...the speedboat ride from mainland to the island was really a bumpy and fun ride...we got lifted off the seats real high when the boat got to hit some real tough wave....our butt seriously hurted like hell.....and the boat went so fast my cap just flew off into the sea...that was the sad part of the fun part...we were all worn out after the 40 minutes ride but upon reaching our chalet and being warmly welcomed by the owner of the chalet who had prepared lunch for us(the food was just awesome), we felt energetic instantaneously and went snorkelling....dat was fun but tide was kinda high so water weren't as clear as usual...manage to see lots of fishes (nemo and dory)..turtle and corals...went to a few spots and there's this small island famed for its cold spring water where even strangers just splash the cold water to you...that was fun as well..it's like we just played around without even knowing each other's names...after snorkelling went back to our island and spent some leisurely time by the beach....never knew sand makes good bed.. managed to sand-burried one of my friends...haha...and kinda made a sculpture out of it....had one of the most care-free moments in life...
dinner was superb...we were basically spoilt for choice...had barbeque fish, squid, prawn, fried rice, salad and satay....palatte was seriously pampared...had a good sleep after that and before we spent enough time in slumberland again we had to wake up at six to see sunrise....but the sky was too cloudy so we couldn't see a perfect sunrise...snap some shots nevertheless and then went back to sleep before we had our last meal there and left the island at eleven something...
reached kt bout three in the afternoon...had keropok lekor REBUS instead of goreng cuz my throat was already itching...after that went and meet up sharon, one of my best mates in national service..had some good moments even though we crapped as usual....went to beach for a while...took some pics...then had nasi dagang for dinner...it's a speciality in terengganu and it wasn't dissapointing at all...good food, good company, good time.....before we realised, the trip came to an end just like every other thing...so my advice to ppl goin to perhentian(kecil), go for lily chalets...they are so cheap yet with good services....not to forget their good food as well...haha....
Here are some pics of perhentian~~

saw this mermaid on the beach~cool

relieved. RELIEVED. Finally the seem to last ever so long exam's over. Wasn't really overjoyed when i finished the last paper besides screeching a little outside the exam hall. Funny how i was always constantly thinking how elated i would be after the torturous stint of more than a month but when it's really over...the feeling wasn't as great as i thought it would be...but like SOME say, maybe it will take some time to finally let the 'fuh,finally' feeling to sink in. Last paper was ok and when the invigilator said we'd got five more minutes left, even though i was still busy scribbling whatever running across my mind, i was still able to lift a light smirk. RELIEVED. good. NOW i can sleep as much as i could. TIME to redeem my sleeping coupons i have earned so hard for. TIME to weave dreams.

GOoodness me...i couldn't believe my eyes when i saw the date on which i last update my blog...almost a month...well it would be in a number of hours....seriously hate exams...how nice would it be if we'd only have classes all and lectures and discussions but NO EXAMS...i think we will enjoy learning any subject better than way...wonder who came up with the idea of having tests and examinations..true it would be important to gauge where we stand and as a measure of our cognitive level..but if we really love the subject and enjoy learning it ..there should be no such objective assessments afterall i think...
Besides having to mug up for this exams...this pass two weeks have been really great....sister came back last week...had lots to catch up with her.. then later on that week got a real GENUINE surprise from my friends.... a friend of mine apparently made up a story and asked to see me...that really got me worried sick...and that friend later popped out in front of my house with two other friends whom i couldn't believe were standing right in front of me at that moment...thought that they were some sort of apparition i've imagined at first...both of my friends from russia came back almost a month earlier for the summer break...was really surprised and touched by their masterplan of giving everyone a shock of their life....can you imagine even their parents didn't know they were planning to come back earlier since they set foot in russia last year?it was a real good surprise though...luv you guys lots, khers and cl...surprises are fun but giving surprises and seeing it work well is far more rewarding....you really get to see different reactions especially that of those you care about and love....so if your life have been a wee bit boring...some simple surprises for ppl around you might be able to spice it up a bit....haha
and then this week my brother came back...was seriously missing him a lot cuz we rarely talk on phone since he left...felt like i've got a lot to talk to him but those things just evaporated to nowhere when i saw him...so we just had moments of silence..as we always had cuz he's a guy with few words....sometimes it's just so funny how it works.....in the absence of someone that you are really missing...you'll feel like telling them everything that you did or happened around you...every triffle things...and somehow you can just relate those things in some way or another with the things you've done with them before...and when the time comes where you meet again...these things just 'pak'...vanish in a snap of finger and there and then you'll be lost for words...hmmm...guess that's what happens when you really care for them and distance has indeed made your hearts grow fonder of one another and strenghtened the bonds....that however doesn't mean that distance is good or anything....the cons does often outweigh the pros...
watched three movies in the past weeks....first was da vince code....was only mediocre....as i have read part of the book,the movie's was generally better at the later part which i have not read about...so again this movie's kinda to the disadvantage of the book readers..like harry potter...the effects in some part of the movie was quite good though..especially when langdon was trying to break the anagram with his photographic memory and the part when leigh teabing was explaining to sophie about the holy grail using the plasma....damn cool....that's the trademark of the director ron howard..always using that sort of effect...in other movies as well.. like a beautiful mind...the second movie i saw was over the hedge..it was in all quite entertaining and carried an indirect message of ppl maltreating the nature..with all those technology advances driving some animals towards the brink of extinction due to a loss of their own habitat...so it's quite educating as well besides guaranteeing some laughters.....then the third movie....X men....din watch the first two of the trilogy but the third wasn't too hard to follow....it was good...luv all the superpowers of the mutants....wished i've got some of the powers too...hahah...effects was good....but some said there were too much of killing and limited space for character developement...can't comment bout that though.....
so far have finished two papers....still have got six to go...this week will sit for the killer subject-->econs unit 5.....am struggling hard now...will try my best and whack the paper in whatever way i could...ahhaha...
till then ...adieu...

Forgot to mention something in the previous post: the IBF -International Badminton Federation 's gonna stick to the 21 pts system and use it for Beijing 2008 :-( [sighs]
Yesterday was wesak day...and as usual went for prayers at Maha Vihara in Brickfields...then i recalled how i celebrated wesak day last year in ns camp...went to another temple near Selayang...that got me reminisce about some sweet memories back in camp ;-)

Some enlightening info from the net:

The Buddhist flag, first hoisted in 1885 in Sri Lanka, is a symbol of faith and peace used throughout the world to represent the Buddhist faith.

The six colors; Blue (nila), Yellow (pita), Red (lohita), White (odata), Scarlet (manjestha), and the mixture of these six colors (prabaswara) of the flag represent the colors of the aura that emanated from the body of the Buddha when He attained Enlightenment under the Bodhi Tree.

*The Horizontal Stripes represent the races of the world living in harmony and the Vertical Stripes represent eternal world peace. The colors symbolize the perfection of Buddhahood and the Dharma.
*The Blue light that radiated from the Buddha's hair symbolizes the spirit of Universal Compassion for all beings.
*The Yellow light that radiated from the Buddha's epidermis symbolizes the Middle Way which avoids all extremes and brings balance and liberation.
*The Red light that radiated from the Buddha's flesh symbolizes the blessings that the practice of the Buddha's Teaching brings.
*The White light that radiated from the Buddha's bones and teeth symbolizes the purity of the Buddha's Teaching and the liberation it brings.
*The Orange light that radiated from the Buddha's palms, heels and lips symbolizes the unshakable Wisdom of the Buddha's Teaching. The Combination Color symbolizes the universality of the Truth of the Buddha's Teaching. (Burmese Buddhist replaced with Pink.)

Therefore, the overall flag represents that:
Regardless of race, nationality, division or color, all sentient beings possess the potential of Buddhahood.
The six colors are better interpreted as :

1. Blue: signifying the concept of loving kindness and peace in Buddhism (Universal Compassion)
2. Yellow: signifying the Middle Path, that is, the complete absence of form and emptiness

3. Red: signifying achievement, wisdom, virtue, fortune and dignity.

4. White: signifying purity, emancipation, that the Dharma will always exist regardless of time or space.

5. Orange: The essence of Buddhism which is full of wisdom, strength and dignity.

6. The combination of these five colors symbolizes that it is the one and only Truth.

Surprisingly to me, the flag was invented in 1880 by an American journalist, Colonel Henry Steele Olcott back in Sri Langka.

Btw, hope it's not too late to wish all buddhists happy wesak day!

And one more thing to add to the list of things i wish to do that i have posted earlier
--> parasailing!!

Could not post thomas cup finals results as promised..it may seem way too late now...but still, below's the results ;p

CHINA VS DENMARK

Lin Dan bt Peter Gade 21-17, 21-19
Cai Yun/Fu Hai Feng bt Martin Lundgaard/Jens Eriksen
19-21, 21-11, 21-18
Bao Chun Lai bt Kenneth Jonassen 21-12, 12-21, 21-12

Only managed to watch a bit of mens doubles [sighs]...the chinese pair weren't that good, they basically got most points from the danes unforced errors...so wasn't a good match afterall....though Cai Yun played quite a few impressively awkward shots...so that got me thinking about something that the chinese believe in : you move ( attack or whatsoever) only when your opponent(s) doesn't, and you halt once they are in motion. Both parties charging forward will create only bedlam... situations/conditions have to be crystalline so that you can make good observations in order to take the most appropriate actions...so maybe the chinese pair had decided to be as error-free as possible and let the danes' mistakes earn them the marks...hmm...that sounds so " sun tzu "...
Met up with a few of my best buddies last sunday...was very happy to see them after such a long time...updated myself with their most recent conditions and only realised how long it had been since i last sit down and really chit-chatted with them...had real fun though i missed the thomas cup finals due to the gathering..no regrets at all...and two of them who are in russia now are coming back on the 2nd of July...can't wait!!! gonna enjoy to the max after the 26th of June!!

Quite some time has elapsed since i last blogged...so basically what i have in mind during this period of time to be written down might have put on a disappearing act when i try to recollect them...this week has not been quite a quotidiant one....with three mocks on three consecutive days...but it wasn't too bad as they are not economics-related...not so 'wordy-based'... anything numerical is always better....but the fact that the monday after next week-->15-05-2006 will be marking the start of my second external exam in a-levels' is quite intimidating...first paper would be accounting and last paper will be economics which is on the 26 of June....so basically the externals this time stretch right up to almost six weeks...with all the papers quite loosely dispersed...so i am quite satisfied with the timetable...will have enough time for last minute preparing all...but then again...six weeks seemed a wee bit too long...things can never ever be too perfect i guess? and yesterday 's 1.02 am was the century event of 010203040506...which represents the time 01:02:03 on the 4th of May 2006....gathered with some friends...played some games in the middle of the night...was fun...will be something sweet to reminisce about next time....these are just those times that might not seem special at that moment but when you recalled it next time, you will simply smile in quiet nostalgia...thinking those were the times that you wished to go back to ...when those friends are no longer somewhere near you...when we continue with our longer journey in life ..which will inevitably lead to long goodbyes as you will hardly see them again ...these are just those precious moments.... thinking about this just somehow makes me appreciate every moment i spend with my friends now more and more...
Thomas cup 'fever' started last week itself....couldn't really update myself with the results all... and the first thing i did when i reached home today was to check the results and see the live semi-finals...missed the first semi finals between china and indonesia which started at 12 pm today malaysia time...managed to catch up on the semi-finals between fellow malaysians and the danes though i missed the first men singles...was very proud of both our mens doubles...they were simply superb and their fighting spirit was impressive and daunting...salute to them...the first mens doubles must be one of the best doubles i have seen so far...both side played a high quality game....singles on the other hand were very disspointing...hafiz hashim's unforced errors are just "countably infinite"...a term in statistics which means that his errors were to no end but can be simply numbered....really not up to par...and with the veteran wong choong hann resigning due to a ruptured achilles tendon during quater finals, kuan beng hong was the third man singles player to play the crucial role of qualifying malaysia to finals after a 2-2 tie....but he was like...just so DISPIRITED...don't think he's even tryin his best....after all his fellow team mates struggling.....this is so DISPIRITING man....but then again, he might have tried his best....haiz...
below are the semi finals results:-

CHINA VS INDONESIA (3-0)
Lindan bt Taufik Hidayat 21-16, 21-8
Fu Haifeng/Cai Yun bt Alven Yulianto/Luluk Hadiyanto 24-22, 21-17
Bao Chun Lai bt Sony Dwikuncoro 21-17, 24-22

MALAYSIA VS DENMARK (3-2)
Peter Gade bt Lee Chong Wei 21-19, 21-18
Chang Chong Ming/ Koo Kean Keat bt Martin Lundgaard/Jens Eriksen 21-17, 30-28, 6-21
Kenneth Jonassen bt Muhd Hafiz Hashim 20-22, 21-12, 21-17
Choong Tan Fook/Lee Wan Wah bt Mathias Boe/Carsten Mogensen 21-13, 15-21, 21-19
Persson Joachim bt Kuan Beng Hong 21-12, 21-19

and one thing, i seriously don't like the new scoring system.. it's just doesn't make sense that even when the player doesn't get the service he gets to score...makes the excitement much less intense now...really hope they will change the system soon...still 15pts the best....
looking forward to finals now...can't wait to see it....but have to study hard before that so i can really enjoy watching it...must make sure this weekend will be a productive one...will study accounting basically, touch a bit of vectors and perhaps a little of economics(depressing econs!)...
talking about econs...the lecturer's really gettin on my nerves...so irresponsible..she'll just talk and talk but not writting the answers down on board...the problem is that she USED to write down the answers...and now...after she has finished explaining, when we all expect her to do what she used to do, she will just go straight on to the next section, leaving us all blank like kiddos in kindergarden....will really have to join the other group of econ class...seriously think their lecturer's much better...giving extra classes which total up to 26 hours...seriously need that...and it's after my accounting paper...so it will be a perfect last minute brush up for me....
DEAR sister and brother are coming back soon!! can't wait to see them...miss them so much....
it'll be long till my next blogging...but will try to post the Thomas Cup finals results ;p
till then,
au revoir~~

Below is a list that i have wanted to make since long, and somehow today the adrenalin rush has prompted me into finally pen it down ..

Things that I wish to do before i bid the world adieu:-

*Devise a mathematical formula
*Compose a song for everyone I know
*Produce an oil painting which is to be hung at the living room
(must be a presentable one though)
*Visit each and every country that is known existed
*Leave the earth (to the moon perhaps)
*Learn all the instruments known (including those played by the minority tribes) especially these intruments : Flute, Chinese flute, Cello, Guitar, Violin, Accordion, harmonica
*Get onto a hot air balloon
*Live in Vienna (for the music) and Switzerland/Belgium (for its chocolate) for a year or two
*Learn all the folk dances (Irish, Romanian, Austrian......)
*Learn all the languages especially Japanese, French, Italian, Spanish, Korean.
*Learn skateboarding
*Paragliding and skydiving
*Write a book (fiction perhaps)
*Keep a small cub (of a tiger)
*Learn the history of all the countries
*Meet Johnny Depp, Keanu Reeves, Adrien Brody, Jay Chou, Eminem
*Meet up with all my kindergarden and primary school classmates
*Join the World Festival Choir
*Learn tap dancing
*Hug a panda bear
*Play with penguins and Koala bear
*Taste all the chocolates in the world
*Skiing (Switzerland perhaps)
*Mount the Himalaya hills

There should be more to be added onto the list in the future...haha...this may seem a wee bit greedy of me, but then again, those are the things i WISH to do, and a list will help me better to achieve them, rather than having all that cluttered up in mind.

Snap Back to reAL LiFe-->
Have not blogged for some time...been quite occupied with studies all...but a tighter schedule is yet to strike...just have to cross my fingers for things to work real smooth... despite the bustlings, life's been quite enjoyable lately...watch a couple of movies..lucky number slevin, capote and ice age...LNS wasn't too bad...got kinda blur at first but things seem to match well like a jigsaw puzzle in the end... capote...i was quite impressed by Philip Seymour Hoffman...he really made me hate him like hell..that's what actors and actresses would seek for as they would define that as a success in their acting i guess...being able to make people feel really disgusted by such appalling dispositions....the story basically tells how hoffman has tried to develop a real close relationship with a murderer just to do his bloody research for his book (IN COLD BLOOD)...how he faked sympathy trying to save the murderer when all he did was to manipulate the murderer(or his victim)'s real feelings to his own advantage ..damn him....it serves him right that he was badly traumatised by the murderer's eventual execution to the extent of not being able to write any book ever after... ice age 2 was really entertaining and well worth the watch..really enjoyed myself...many has said that the first was better...couldn't really remember the first so can't compare with the sequel....but then again, sequels are usually not as good as the first, with the exception of LOTR and Matrix Trilogy...all were superb....
External exam is less than a month away...i can hear the ominous footsteps nearing now.....

Again the week has sped by so fast... despite the fact that it's a short sem that i am in, i felt so lazy to really pump in effort in studies...slept a lot more than usual....had more fun than usual... enjoyin life...haha.. sat for mock paper this week...think it will turn out fine... but mock for econs which is in two weeks time will be bad i think...never really touched the book since term started...concentrated too much on maths..which is a real headache to me now...but then when i start thinking about the fact that even the lecturer's kinda struggling solving the questions...i dun feel that bad...sense of relieve instead...haha....
finally got to watch the movie brokeback mountain...it was really good...heath ledger and jake gyllenhaal were simply superb....their unalloyed feelings for each other really earn much tears..i don't feel any sense of disgust or disapprobation at all.. just pure acceptance... accept the fact that they themselves didn't want things to turn out the ways they did.. i seriously pay homage to them..how they have the courage to face life...how they have tried real hard to metamorphose and conform to the conventional stereotype they are expected to be... how they try to give up each other but to no avail eventually.... a great storyline with just the right actors...awesome... no wonder it has won numerous awards...well worth the watch...

Something from v for vendetta again...

[dElicoussss v-dialogue as my sister puts it]

Voilà!
In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished, as the once vital voice of the verisimilitude now venerates what they once vilified. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-à-vis an introduction, and so it is my very good honor to meet you......and you may call me V.

[the ever so long self introduction of *V*] sounDs familiaR??hehe...

Days of lately have passed significantly fast...guess it's due to the increasing load of homeworks due... can sense the tense even though I don't really realise that exams are drawing nearer as lecturers tend to constantly drone on and on about the exams...and last january externals results were out...i did generally fine..was satisfied....even though some papers were not up to expectations but economics turned out to be the underdog...haha...surprised....
watched final destination 3 and v for vendetta the other day...a movie marathon...final destination wasn't that good...can kinda predict how they will die...just the intensity of grossness that will trigger you slightly...still the first sequel 's the best i would say...they really drag the time the victims suffered before they're doomed...haha....chunted....on the other hand....v for vendetta was good...hugo weaving was of impressive disposition...with all the words and verses pragmatically rephrased...sometimes i couldn't even catch what he was blurting so fast a speed...a very different movie...one of my friend said that the graphic novel was better with other intricacies....v for vendetta's quite a famous graphic novel according to her..and that's why the making of the movie was quite a hit among those avid graphic novel readers...
have mock exam this week itself... it's better to have it early...can really find my weak points and really work on them for the remaining weeks.... can't wait for the month may to come...not because of the external exams...but i miss both my siblings too dearly...hopefully i will still be able to concentrate for exams preparation when they're back...haha...seriously can't wait...
till then, adieu~~

[Got this from somewhere bout v for vendetta]

'A revolution without dancing, is not a revolution.'

I pondered the words of the masked man as he took the ladies hand, and together they waltzed, gliding across the carpeted stone floor, dancing to a tune long forgotten. Why was he dancing, now of all times? On the eve of his supposed triumph, the finale of his satirical play looming with every tick of the clock, and he's, dancing?Maybe, it's best we start at the beginning.But then again, why should I?Do you want to know the beginning? Isn't the end all that matters? For him, clad in that ever grinning face of steel, the end was all that mattered, it justified the means, it meant justice to him. Look at him, you cannot see his face, yet his words will make you look at yours. You doubt me? Follow the fool and end up a bigger one?True.If only we knew what he was, how he came to be, why words seem to glide so fluently and charismatically from behind a Faustian mask. Such a gripping persona, one so broad and wide, yet troublingly shallow at times. At least with her, there is depth; no question remains unanswered with her. She had tragic past, lives a tragic life, but surely, mercy and reprieve await her days to come.

'Remember, remember, the 5th of November.'

Before they danced, long before he would even ask for her hand, there was an idea. Was it his? I cant say for certain. Yet it drove him, as it drove Guy Fawkes many centuries before. Did it drive someone before even Fawkes? Maybe. Ideas are eternal; ideas are well, bullet-proof so to say. It isn't in our time that 'his' idea was driven against, although it would be fairly safe to assume that maybe your children would live to experience it. Will your children live in a time when deceit and lies blanket the truth? Will they be vindicated, violated and vilified like he was? When the voice of your country subjugates it people, forces them into silence, would you, listen in awe, or listen in fear? But above all that, it matters most whether you will listen or if you will not at all.

'There is no coincidence, only opportunity.'

And he will strike and strike when it arises, seldom as it may be. Does he care not for the guns they hold, the Kevlar they adorn? Not in the least. Steel will glimmer and flash in the pale light, knives will draw and knives will sing, short a medley as it was, I felt that urge, to, well, sing along.Ah, he bolts off again, draped in black, cape fluttering behind him. Will you follow? Do his words reach you, will you listen to his words? For all that he may seem to be, a mask, the knives, the simple pleasures he partakes in, you still have to think, you have to envision.

If you will do that, you will follow him, and you will be free. =]

Was happy that peter gade has beaten lindan to qualify himself to the China Masters MS final....even though lin has the home advantage with thousands of fans screeching in the hall...gade has proved his standard..cool....he will be up against chen jin who won the ticket to finals after beating kenneth jonassen....and mia audina's back after a long break...her back hand was damn good...smashes were precise as well...but still lost to xie xing fang who's defence's equally impressive... game's been a bit different nowadays since the change of 21 points system..games end quite fast as every service over carries mark..still best of three though.. kinda sad that i can't enjoy watching the finals at home and have to get updated by dad...
went ice skating last friday with bunch of class mates...it was fun... was a real amateur...fell down four or five times in total...kinda fun falling down...haha...although the first fall was kinda embarassing... but the consequent falls kinda get me better at it.. guess you have to fall to learn...that goes for everything...once you got the feeling of failure...you have no fear whatsoever since you 've already experienced the worst....
and yeah, 090306--> a date to remember ;p

Finally i've finished the book - the five people you meet in heaven..thanks to a friend who lend it to me..don't have to wait for months before my sister can bring that book back...have been coveting for the book for months...so... my take on the book...it's mind triggering basically, gets you thinking about heaven...what's really up there in heaven, or is it even up above us.. as it might just be on the same piece of land we are treading on... the author's underlying point is that he envisioned heaven as any place where the person can find eternal calmness, happiness and contentment...so it could be anywhere the person has always enjoyed being at....may it be the monotonous place that you've spent your last 20 years...haha...if ever that's true, i think i will end up in my own house...preferably with a chocolate factory right next to it...hahha....wow...that will be a real dream come true...and yes...like what the title has implied..you will meet five people at five different place before you reach your own heaven....those five will come with the great onus of teaching the person a lesson... lessons based on your past life when you get to see with greater clarity the life you have lived, which have often been a blur... you will get to learn from your mistakes which would have changed some people's life ..or even worse...cost their lives..directly or tortuously.. it's amazing how things can be related in such a way..so inexplicable... which reminds me of what one of my friend has said...everyone in the world is connected to everyone...at most six degrees of connection..never more...intriguing....
guess different people will have different perception or idea of heaven...mine's quite similar to the one in the cartoon tom and jerry....when it's high up above the clouds where u can actually walk on...and you have to like get interviewed at a platform...but i don't really quite agree with that part...cuz when you fail the interview...you will get hurled down straight to hell...i think the decisions should have been made before you are 'sent' to heaven or hell... anyway, the cartoon's damn funny....hahah...no doubt...so...in a nutshell...great book..mitch sure has some flair for such mind provoking writings...
saw a movie today...proof...starring Gwyneth parltrow and Jake Gyllenhaal....really inspring...parltrow's a devoted daughter who has come to face the death of her father, a brilliant mathematician whose genius was crippled by mental insanity...then there's a little suspense as to who actually found the proof... the movie really insprired me.... my love for maths grew even deeper now..hahha....just wish i can come up with my own devised proof or formulae...that will be the greatest appreaciation ever....but i am just too tiny an entity in the ever prodigious mathematical field...haha...
got loads of homework...but since i am still inspired...here i come, hyperbolic functions!! haha

tHIs week has been a fast one...had so much fun that i am seriously knackered... went out with friends and saw the movie fun with dick and jane....it was funny but sitting beside one crazy friend of mine who basically laughs at every trifles made it far more enjoyable...really laugh ourselves out... and finally my hostel mates and i went to genting... it's fun because i haven't had some good screams at theme parks for some time...went crazee with bunch of cool friends...and got some achievements up there...hehe...i finally managed to open my eyes for some rides...grow of courage...and the space shot(formally solero shot) wasn't scary at all...i think they've changed the style or way of movements...after some incidents.... not so many rides they have now that i really notice it....think sunway lagoon's still the best...hahha....and food up there in genting is really overpriced....goodness....so basically i am real B-R-O-K-E now.....hahah....
besides the fun... there're things not so enjoyable...torturings instead--> tonnes of homework....haiz.... this is seriously a short sem with everything so compressed and lectures at such fast speed that i dun really know what's happening in class....especially pure maths....gotta brush up today....hate punishments after pleasures.... but then again...pleasures all the time's gonna be boring..hahha....concept of yin and yang... *ReVel in Punishments*

"Life is a Series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't; You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted."

"Sometimes when you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too - even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling."

"A teacher affects infinity; he can never tell where his influence stops."

"Everyone knows they're going to die, but nobody believes it. If we did, we would do things differently. That way, you can actually be more involved in your life while you're living."

"Most of us all walk around as if we're sleepwalking. WE really don't experience the world fully, because we're half-asleep, doing things we automatically think we have to do; therefore facing the inevitable death changes all that; when you learn how to die, you learn how to live."

The above are a few lines i quoted from the book ,tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom that I find very simple yet meaningful. As pleased and grateful i am to finally sit down and managed to appreciate the book...it's much of a blessing that i ever knew such a book existed... a real touching carving of his old professor by mitch...it's a non-fiction book about mitch, the author's last few lessons with his professor who suffered a fatal illness...lessons about life...things that we never thought of in our life...things that the great old man could portray with such clarity... a great bereavement that Mitch had suffered to lose someone of so much importance...who has mould him into what he is today...real good book...now i am really looking forward to reading another great piece of work from Mitch Albom--> the five people you meet in heaven....but this a fiction, not so much as a life guidance...
Watched the movie Geisha today...finaaallly....but the pirated version...as my friends have all seen the movie...could't get anyone to see it with me....was practically baffled through the whole movie...with wrong misleading sub-titles( you don't expect much from pirated version i guess..) more than half of the time i couldn't understand what they are talking...too heavily-japanese-slanged-english ... i give up straining my ears to get what they were saying and try to guess purely by the expressions...ended up blur when the movie ends....haizz.....was totally not enjoyable...so people...dont' buy pirated dvd's...hahha....
College started this week....and it wasn't really good for me as my physical condition was kinda bad the whole week...very weak....was even considering not going to classes....guess it's due to the over indulgence during chinese new year celebration....haha... the new syllabus is quite ok... further maths's gettin more interesting...we have to imagine numbers that don't even exist now...statistics is also getting more interesting...more probabilities...no more tedious graphs to draw...but econs remain the worse subject....we are now doing the the last two units instead of the middle one as external exams for the last two units are only offered in June... therefore the subject's gettin way too tough for me.... the lecturer even says that we have to start reading magazines like the economists...DIE!!.....now that i can't hope that my first few units to pull up my grade as they are equally bad...just cross my fingers that i would just pass...hahah....
It's Chap Goh Mei this Sunday...and it marks the end of the Chinese New year celebration...sad...but gonna enjoy myself to the fullest this sunday...gonna see some lion dance performances at petaling street...as usual....and meeting some friends....just hope i don't enjoy too much again...or i shall have an ominous long week waiting for me next week....

woW..it's already the fifth day of Chinese New Year....time really does fly when you are happily indulging in stuffs you enjoy....this year's celebration has been quite typically quotidiant...went for prayers..lion dancing...visitin relatives...relatives visiting...really have not seen them for ages...all busy with their life...cousins are mostly working people..and thus inevitably creating an age gap ... all Had metamorphose into more mature beings.. even serious talks came down to serious solemnity... miss those times when we used to shout to each other in real high tunes .. chasing after each other around the house.. greedily getting grasp of the food before the waiter even placed the dishes on the table...which will then earn our parents rants and raves..haha...notorious creatures...

watched fearless the other day... it was generally very good...and like all other jet li's movie...the theme doesn't run away from patrotism..family... respects...it really portrays the cultures which has been long forgotten by many... like the movie fang si yu...jet li manage to include some sense of humour...but this is not so funny...the former was more of a classic.. the ending part of fearless was quite touching...think the last fight of his will earn some tears...

managed to read a book in mph before the movie...a very short yet very meaningful book...it's called "who moved my cheese"...it's a very simple story which may seem or mean nothing to some people.. but if you really try to figure out the meaning behind the simplicity ..you will definitely gain something... it generally showcases people's stubborness to accept changes when they are perfectly comfortable with their current situation and life...or so it may seem to them...and any changes, to them ...will only signal catastrophic ending to the the success and happiness they've worked so hard for... they only consider the negative things which follow the new practices...but make no effort to figure out the good new things they might be able to enjoy..even mice's simple and low cognitive level will bring them to more success as compared to human... accepting new changes and taking up challenges will bring you more cheese..which perhaps taste better than the before ones.. a very good book i must say....

college's starting next week...gonna be quite hectic...with a shorter term..and more difficult syllabus to cover...will really have to cross fingers for things to work smooth and fine... chaOzz